I dont see y im alive

Diagnosed Sz or Sza
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I do not know how to trust. Dont think i ever will in infinity either.

Its how i am.

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Sorry to hear this @Daydreamer about the disrespect thrown at you.

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Its weird cos i can make a decision and believe it but idk how to trust..:joy:

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you’d be surprised how many people have trust issues in this world, its a pandemic lol

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Yea im sure many people do. I am one of them

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Sometimes its good not to trust tho. Its not always a disease.

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I think its good to be cautious or wary but I wouldn’t let it control me, its just like an instinct that you feel, like picking up vibes and you blame it on this or that, I go with my gut a lot of the time,

I have been stung a number of times though and it’s not nice. I thought I could trust but I trusted the wrong people, I think thats more their problem than mine though, I was just the receiver of their betrayals. they were the ones who were at fault not me, still hurts though.

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Write down some goals n dreams and work towards them every day :).

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I also think that 78 years to get to know someone feels too short.

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You’re a treasure, Zoe. Fight back against these negative thoughts

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It feels meaningless if we get 2 know one another over 70 years to only then die lol

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Thanks man you are also a treasure.

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hope you feel better zoe… try to get some hydrating drinks in like milk, fruit, vegetables etc.

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Wishing the best for you @Zoe - Things can improve.

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Praying for you :folded_hands:

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Maybe you can find someone to talk to in person about it. Are you covered for therapy?

And as for trauma, I just block all mine out. I have to think pretty hard to remember being strangled, screamed at or locked in a tiny cell. Being sarcastic and deadpan helps. I know it doesn’t work that way for everyone though.

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I do what I can to help people

Just trying to right the wrongs and be there for my parents especially who have gone through a lot with me and stayed

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Thanks everyone. This has helped get me out of this delusional infinity state. The truth is facts. The facts are that we are alive. And we dont know anything about death if there is something afterwards or not.

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do you have existential pain?

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I’m sorry Zoe .. all I can say is you don’t deserve trauma or a boring life. This may sound stupid but maybe your living to find a reason for living

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