A few weeks ago I told my doctor about a side effect I got from my medicine and they lowered my dose.
The side effect that was disturbing me was blurry eyesight which has become a bit better, but Im starting to feel more afraid to walk outside again. I can feel my thoughts escaping my head and people can read those thoughts and see my soul through my brain connection.
I also feel a connection to my kitchen knife due to the other dimension interfiering, I can feel it wanting me to hurt myself. It keeps putting the thought in my head but I dont want to hurt myself, but I cant escape it. I have hid all of my sharp items out of sight.
I know I should tell my doctor about this but Im scared they will put me inpatient if I do, I really cant afford to get put in the hospital now. I dont havw the money for it and I have to move soon
I feel really hopeless right now, I wish it would just go away
Sounds like you had a negative reaction symptom wise when you lowered the dose. I think you should tell your doctor. Maybe you could go back up on your dose if the blurry vision isn’t too hard to cope with until you can get ahold of the doc. Then you and the doc can make a new plan about what to do.
I can identify with your dilemma. So many times I was tempted to lie to my drs because I was afraid they’d admit me…but when I spoke to them they usually didn’t mention hospital.
Of course I don’t lie to them but I sometimes downplay what some of my symptoms are (eg if I self harmed). I can identify with the intrusive thoughts about kitchen knives. I’ve gotten that too.
I think the best is to tell your dr the most you can feel comfortable with. They will need to know about your meds situation and adjust them. I hope things go well for you and you pull through this. Hugs
