I have been in a mixed episode but now its turned to pure depression i think. I dont wanna do anything besides sleep i slept for probably 18 hours last night. Im also pretty suicidal but no intent or anything just very BLAH
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I’m sorry to hear you are not feeling well.
Is there something you enjoy doing that doesn’t require much effort?
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Im trying to get back into games but i cant play for more than 15 mins without getting bored suddenly. I dont have a TV right now. Music is usually too much for me to handle anymore
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The current weather does this to me a bit sometimes. Its so cold and snowy and it gets dark so early now. Hard to get outside and get a breath of fresh air and some sunshine without freezing your rear end off.
Could this be part of it?
SOrry you are struggling.
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Perhaps start even smaller. Make some coffee or tea, eat some snacks? Just to get up from the bed?
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@SzSupportAdmin Yeah probably is. I miss taking my dog to the park and going for walks through the woods
@Speedy ive been trying to relax but its time to work on my honework now maybe that will distract me
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So sorry to hear this, do you think it might be linked to the season? December-January is usually hard for me just because of seasonal depression that comes with the holidays. Probably because of the forced themes of togetherness, perfectness, and norman rockwellness all around us that conflicts with how I believe my life really is.
The one good thing about this type of slump (if that’s what it is) is that it tends to improve when things warm up
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For me i just have waves in my moods. I have frequent mixed episodes so my mania and depression present either at the same time or fluctuate quickly. I dont recognize any reasonal patterns because this happens every few months regardless
If you have bipolar or borderline personality disorder those might just be a regular day. Constant changing emotions. I gave up feeling, I’m kind of numb day to day. When I had to go to school and work I was forced to just keep moving like a robot and with little sleep, it was tough. My mind was always busy at night thinking and having test anxiety. I hated it. Sometimes when you get everything done you have to do you feel some relief. Having school assignments on your mind can really damper the moment especially if you have time to dwell. I would say stay busy but people hate that and if you’re home all day you’re gonna have down time. If I gave you a million dollars maybe a lot of your problems would disappear. If so, this could show the root of your problems. I’m always thinking about my mom getting older, it sucks. Keep riding out the bad days and hope for more good days that’s all you can do. Hang in there. Hope you feel better soon.
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@moon Try putting on a coat hat and gloves and standing outside for 10 minutes, 5 even. The cool fresh air might help snap you out of that funk for a bit.
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@2Waynez i definitely have bipolar and autism which can both cause this its just super cyclical. I used to go months between episodes but since i developed functional neurological disorder last year after a car accident it never stops for longer than two weeks. Wellbutrin helped so much with depression and the thought that im talking to someone else in my head. My husband thinks its because i have ADHD. But wellbutrin made my blood pressure dangerously high so now im on blood pressure meds and no AD.
@Lilyofthevalley i do that a lot because i have a dog. A short walk can help me feel a little better unless im super down in the dumps then i despise needing to take my dog out. She relies on me and i pull through even when i feel like i cant.
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I’m glad you have your dog. I know that at least helps.
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Yeah shes great. Shes training to be a service dog. I am training her myself actually. Im in a class for it. Shes already alerted to my anxiety attacks and laid on top of me. It helps me
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She’s the best!
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I’m feeling that way too. Just depressed mood changes. The voices are bad tonight. I hope feeling better soon.
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It will pass. Wishing you well!
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