My best friend is not replying to my messages anymore. We were talking and hanging out since 2016. His friend who is also my friend is telling me he is mad because I blocked him for 8 months for no reason, is he right to be mad?
His friend and I do not really hangout only a few times before but he replies politely to every message I send him the same day.
Before blocking him I was telling him that he is not a true or a good friend because I have sz and that if I never had sz I would have never been his friend. I wanted my presz friends back, I saw 2 of them recently and they added me on social media after I deleted them while psychotic years ago but we never spoke as I humiliated myself in front of them when I was fully psychotic and I feel ashamed talking again to them. Should I talk to them? My brothers are telling me no as its been many years I did not talk to them.
Since I got sz I keep changing friends every few years I can’t keep them long term. I lost all my presz friends during first psychosis and made new ones then lost most of them during second relapse. Now I only hangout with my brothers and their friends but they are telling me to get my own friends. I don’t feel the social drive to make new friends or talk to old ones, the one who I had blocked was low maintenance as he was the one calling me everyday so even if I did not have the social drive to contact him it did not matter.
I am thinking maybe getting a gf who can also be a friend but its even harder since I do not have a sex drive on 8mg risperidone anyways, I don’t feel attraction since on this med, risperidone increased my prolactin so much which decreased testosterone to very low level my Dr thought I had a brain tumor.
I understand. I have the same struggles. It makes me feel very bad. I guess it’s the schiz and anxiety to blame. But that doesn’t make me feel better that much.
I don’t care about these “friends” anymore, anyways they were toxic and jealous of me. They kept talking badly about others and kept complaining about their problems to me which stresses me. They are low IQ and I even told them that they say nothing nice or intelligent, only negative things. I see a big difference between them and my brothers friends which are smart and only say nice things to me, they care about me.
Yes me too when I lower my dose, they are bad but with sz I get scared of them, it amplifies the hate. It makes me sensitive, better stay away from toxic people.
Making new friends is hard for most people. Extremely social types are always rubbing elbows and making new friends, but I cant handle that kind of thing. If I make a friend he or she would typically not have many other friends. I havent had an in real life friend since 2016 whennI started paliperidone. Ive had social ties since then but not legit friends. The best way to make friends I found is at school, college or university or in community activities you sign up for.
All the postsz friends I had were bad influence and gossipers or trouble makers. They talk badly about each other and are not nice. They are materialistic and asked me money for gas for picking me up since we sold my car years ago.
I find most people are bad influences, negative or toxic in some way when they connect with me. Almost all influenced me to drink or smoke weed when I was abstaining. Even if I say I can’t they try to get me to. In some ways its better to be alone unless heaven sends an angel.
I can understand your friend being angry because you blocked him, it was surely hurtful for him
I have my female bestie after she became depressive that stopped answering my messages, it’s so hurtful
I had times when I was psychotic where I accused my friends of doing me wrong, they didn’t answer to me and waited I was calm to talk to me about something else
I’m lucky to have benevolent friends so even when I acted crazy they didn’t care and are still my friends
If your friends were mean to you or talking only about negative things I can understand you don’t want to talk to them anymore
No I had good times sometimes with him but sometimes I feel like he wants me to listen to him more than he listens to me. I get mad when he lies to me. I feel like I am hypersensitive and my family says I am the problem and that there is no perfect friend, everyone has flaws.
