Someone actually did laugh at me today as I was walking inside Walmart when they drove by me there was no one else around, so it had to be me, they were laughing at for one reason or another that I don’t know the reason why anyone would laugh at someone and it’s probably someone fat and ugly that is doing the laughing someone who thinks they look good or someone jealous of me usually is the case I didn’t see the person so I may be making assumptions. But I hate it when I hear someone laughing whether it be at me or just in general cause I think their laughing at me but in this case, they were. Every time I hear someone laughing, I have these thoughts that I want to take a bat to their face, and I bet they wouldn’t be laughing at me anymore. Are the thoughts I get in my head. If people knew some of those thoughts in my mind they wouldn’t want to mess with me and they would be scared too. It seems every day I have those same thoughts just when I hear someone laughing and it’s directed towards me or even if it isn’t and I think it is I turn into a monster even having thoughts in my mind like that it’s a scary place to be and I don’t like going there in my mind. My mom used to say my eyes would change from light color to dark when I would go to the dark side and when I was off my meds, I was really mean and evil. It affects everyone differently when you’re off meds I have to be on them for life or else I could end up really hurting myself or others or possibly end up in jail for murder I have a cousin that’s on death row because of Murder and he had Schizophrenia a lot of mental illness in our family on my dad’s side and bipolar too.
Maybe they were stoned ..
Or maybe they were thinking of some funny meme or joke. It honestly could have been anything. I used to be really insecure about being laughed at, too. I know I’m overweight and not pretty, but I’m a person with feelings. Then it occurred to me that people are generally far too self-absorbed to bother laughing at me because they hardly notice me. When people laugh now, it usually makes me smile. I like that people are happy, and laughter can be a good indicator that they are happy. Or, maybe, like @anon68822644 stated they were stoned!
Most people wear earbuds and talk to people on their phones everywhere. It’s weird.
I don’t pay attention to people anymore. Sometimes around a lot of people I get thought insertion.
Thanks for trying to encourage me its probably nothing but me being paranoid but still Im wary of people laughing thinking their laughing at me anyhow I dont like having those thoughts but I get them when I go out in rl and public always have and always will Its not that Im insecure I think Im pretty confident at times and other times not so much I think its paranoia
@2Waynez I get intrusive thoughts too around people it doesnt even have to be a lot of people maybe one or two if I think their singling me out to laugh and make fun of me then yes I get those kind of thoughts a lot
Yeah I understand. I hate it too. Honestly people shouldn’t be walking around on their phones constantly because they aren’t aware of their surroundings. It’s the today’s time though. Try not to let it get to you. Let it wash over you and think good thoughts. Wanting to harm them isn’t healthy thinking.
Thanks @sweetpotatopie I agree with you
I always put it like this. People who grew up stealing don’t know that stealing is wrong so they don’t feel guilty and if or when we tripped in a store and someone laughed we could either be embarrassed or choose not to be. That’s what helps me although I understand sometimes it can be hard but what would them laughing at you actually do? except make them look bad for laughing. Maybe talk to your therapist about it. Not saying it didn’t happen. I’d just take it with a grain of salt and pay attention to my character, my personality, what I’d like to do , the people who actually care for me and the things that make me happy.
Also intrusive thoughts are just thoughts, doesn’t mean you will act on them and it doesn’t make you a violent person. Don’t worry. Please be safe.
I doubt they were laughing at you @PsychWard101
You don’t have three heads
Yep youre right Wave but sometimes to other people seems like I do have three heads also get mean looks from some people I try my best to Block and ignore those that give me mean looks but its hard to do sometimes I had been really good at ignoring and zoning out on negative people but here lately I have let my guard down and its been getting to me
I wish I had 3 heads I could eat 3 cheeseburgers at the same time
I will be fine never would act on these thoughts but it is worrisome a little that I am even having these evil thoughts sometimes Im my own worst enemy @Kaos
I also tend to feel targeted when people laugh, even more when it looks like they’re staring at me while laughing
I think it’s because it happened a lot that people laughed at me or were mean with me
Try to tell yourself when it happens “They surely thought about something funny, it’s not about me and even if it was about me, I don’t care I know my value”
I get this totally I understand how you feel I also get people giving me mean looks and if looks could kill I would be dead by now and people in general being mean to me saying mean things etc. it hurts at times other times not so much I don’t even give it a second thought
I hope you’ll be able to feel less hurt as time flies
I keep being hurt by mean things said to me (mostly said by my family), I would like to not give a f