it’s 03:22 here in Cape Town and I woke up suddenly and couldn’t sleep. I just wanted to write a little about recent things…
last night I had a crisis again, hurt myself worse, cried deeply for a while, but didn’t take prn again. I just rode it out, wondering if on the third day of increased amisulpride dose (400-500mg) I’d improve a little.
when I woke up just now, I sensed a very subtle shift…I feel as if Alien is not as strong in his possession of me …like I have a little breathing space.
it’s early days but I was expecting to improve on my higher dose - I always have. amisulpride is a miracle med for me. without it I’m so terribly ill…how many a time wasn’t I in hospital and swiftly got better on increased dose.
since my relapse early last month, I averted hospital three times. I feel it might not be necessary this time and that my relapse is passing its peak.
early days still…I might lose it again…but I just wanted to share how I sense a slight improvement.
I still have my conviction of Alien, Sarah and radio, but it seems more bearable somehow…
a sincere thank you to all those who stood by me in my crises. I love you guys, brothers and sisters in this sz/sza thing together.
Dikadickybird
