Types of psychosis symptoms etc in sz and sza

Diagnosed Sz or Sza
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I have had many unusual experiences and I’ve never had a chance to ask other schizophrenics how they perceive the world while in psychosis.

I have pdychotic episodes where I don’t remember a single thing for days and get told I did very bizarre things usually in the hospital.

I have episodes where one thing was happening around me and another was happening in my head with vivid hallucinations and delusions that I mostly do remember. That whole two weeks all I remember from the real world is trying to use my cell phone and having a hard time using it… but during this one episode I called 911 twice and police came out to the hospital and I called my psychologist at three am to tell her that the hospital staff was trying to kill me. So then She called the hospital to ask about me. I was in the regular hospital this time bc I had come in for a basically physical problem not mental that’s why I had my phone. Worst part ever is my wife told he the nurses told her that I got out of bed and started running - butt ass naked - down the halls punching and kicking nurses and staff and they had to tackle me and put me back in bed four point restraints. I’m sure that was not a good look for me.

Other times I see things, feel things, and hear things etc while in psychosis but I am somewhat aware something might be wrong but all the hallucinations and delusions are very real to me. And I mostly understand my wife but it’s like I can’t communicate with her. Like I only speak a language that no one knows and I can’t talk. It’s very weird.

Last, other times I’m aware of reality but I think unusual things and have trouble understanding that the delusions and hallucinations aren’t real.

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I don’t have a diagnosis yet(for my psychosis) but when I have psychosis I feel anxious and feel like the whole world (or a whole country) is against me

I feel unsafe everywhere, I’m scared I’m gonna be beaten or something else

I feel like other people or the police can read every thing I do on internet

I feel like every move I do is watched outside and I hear disses, laughs against me

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@Vaiana

Thank you so much for sharing. I hope you get the help you need.

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You’re welcome

It’s okay ,with my medication I don’t hear much voices nowadays

I mostly have anxiety,low mood,no motivation now

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When I have psychosis it feels like a storm in my head. Usually I have constant low grade psychosis symptoms like delusions but when I’m in acute phase I have internal voices in my head and the radio in my head plays 24/7. And I’m self harming because of the voices and wanting to get the evil spirit out of my head and body (one of the voices). My thoughts also go jumbled and I write nonsense rhyming words and unrelated words and sentences.

When I’m psychotic I still have a little awareness of what is happening but it’s very intense and stormy inside my head and I get scared because the evil spirit tells me to end life of my husband and I end up self harming instead. The voices can be very distressing and intense sometimes when in acute phase.

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