My husband can’t understand how hard it is for me to do a simple thing like shopping.
How many others here have a similar problem to me?
my problem is when I view all the steps in going shopping (eg. dress, go to car, start car, drive, park at shops, go in shops, select items) I see them all at once and it goes like a spinning blur in my head, all mixed up and overwhelming and I feel paralysed to take action, it’s too much for me.
hubby can’t understand that. almost wants to give up on me…feel sad. why does simple things like going out have to be so hard???
also, how do I tell what is due to laziness and what is due to schiz? I read the difference is found in what one was like before schiz. but I was 15 when it started! how do I know what I was like?
one thing I do know though, is that as a child, I loved going out. and since I got sick in my teens I became opposite - I withdrew and stayed in my room.
now it’s like that still - I wish I didn’t have to go out much. how do I cope with caring for an epileptic husband who shouldn’t drive when I myself have schiz?? it’s so hard…I struggle so much with all the responsibilities… all I want to do is stay home and read… not worry about getting dressed and going out and socialising…
I have to mask, and just bear with the discomfort. I get the weekly shop, travel home with it, put it all away - and then I crash out and feel tired and overwhelmed. Which sounds silly to most people. Its not a hard task. But the whole “leading up to it” is serious work for me.
I dont feel like going places much either. My grandma had epilepsy all her life and i grew up with her. Its frustrating when you dont feel like doing anything. And you have to go.
Do you ever catch a break though like idk do something for yourself. Sit in a quiet room? I dont know if i can help . Hugs
